leisure

   Have you ever been a person who do not want to care about anything then go ahead by your own way but you are still worried about the people who will say something bad words behind you? There is no doubt that they just wanna protect you. They can be your friends, family and pets. I am a person who hate somebody to strict me. Of course at the same time, I will not ask others to do something. It will be fair. Being totally and glad that all of my friends are at the stage that I want. I even do not know if there is someone like me.
    Some people want to live in a leisure and free life. Some like to live in a crowded and busy life like in city. For me, i prefer to live in city. I am a person who hate to be strict but I am a person who is afraid of lonely. Maybe big city is suit me. I need shops, people, food, pets, internet, and lover. But one thing I want to say. In my deep mind, I do wanna shop by myself. I do not know why. I am also afraid to be lonely. It is really weird and I cannot trust and follow what I should do afterward. But I know I need to be strong.
    One of my friends described my personality. She said I am a girl who do not understand how to say NO. As long as I have any sadness or grievance, I always hide it and will not speak out. Actually I am. I do not want my friends will be sad with me or always listen to my complain. I seldom tell other about me unless my good friends. Sometimes it will be very annoyed if you keep talking about your own thing. It will turn to argue I think. But for me, I like to listen to my friends' business or mood. Because I think I am a person who can make others happier. Some of my friend are often not in a good mood. I always be a listener and giving her or him my opinion. I believe that listening and telling can be a good therapy in their bad mood.
   Sometimes I jealous them that they can talk about their things easily. The most important in relationship: telling, listening and replying. Not everyone can do it perfect. We all know, loving is easy but living is hard. It is still always a problem that how to do it well. On the other hand, I follow my own mind cannot be the best but can be a brace from my own.