How free i feel is how tall i jump

   It is really relax and free. When i was little, my dad always took us to the ocean to see the beautiful scene and played with the sea. The beach is very important to me. I will not dizzy during playing with sand. I think it loves me! If the ocean was a human, i hoped it could be a man. A man who has a wide shoulder and strong back. When i am lonely i hope he can reply me..... But it always a dream. How to make it better is still a problem. We people cannot make everything perfect. There is no pain then there is no happiness. I think that is the maker's purpose.
   The winter vacation is almost ending. The picture was took by my friend, Joyce. That was the first time that i went there with my classmates, Orion and Annie. I mean it is most opened moment, so does Orion. The smile in the pic cannot be seen without staying at the beach. And the sea is also beautiful. Have you ever seen the Kenting ocean? I can say that is the most beautiful beach that i have ever seen in Taiwan. I have been there for twice. The first time was with family, aunts and Uncle Tony's, already almost three years ago. That was the most wonderful period of time in my life.
   Uncle Tony is Taiwanese American, living in Maryland, America. He has three children. Sometimes we would talk in English with each. They did not have any Taiwanese cavity! To keep practicing and speaking in English until no Taiwanese cavity is not easy, as long as we are not locals. I think it is totally different that growing up in Taiwan from America or any Wests. They are open and generous. If i had a chance, i did wanna be a foreigner who lived in America, my dream place!
   It is always a dream, just like i hoped the ocean can be a human. Through traveling the Chi Jing beach, i think, i do not have my friends but i have a lot of intimate and best friends. Friends are the role who can reply me, and ocean can listen to me. It do not have a skill of speaking so he will not complain my mood. I think it is good! For dream of being a foreigner who lives in America. It is a dream that i cannot make it come true by myself. It not mean i am not happiness. I still have a wonderful family. I think i should be content.
   God is equality. We get the fruits we plant. How free i feel is how tall i jump.  

leisure

   Have you ever been a person who do not want to care about anything then go ahead by your own way but you are still worried about the people who will say something bad words behind you? There is no doubt that they just wanna protect you. They can be your friends, family and pets. I am a person who hate somebody to strict me. Of course at the same time, I will not ask others to do something. It will be fair. Being totally and glad that all of my friends are at the stage that I want. I even do not know if there is someone like me.
    Some people want to live in a leisure and free life. Some like to live in a crowded and busy life like in city. For me, i prefer to live in city. I am a person who hate to be strict but I am a person who is afraid of lonely. Maybe big city is suit me. I need shops, people, food, pets, internet, and lover. But one thing I want to say. In my deep mind, I do wanna shop by myself. I do not know why. I am also afraid to be lonely. It is really weird and I cannot trust and follow what I should do afterward. But I know I need to be strong.
    One of my friends described my personality. She said I am a girl who do not understand how to say NO. As long as I have any sadness or grievance, I always hide it and will not speak out. Actually I am. I do not want my friends will be sad with me or always listen to my complain. I seldom tell other about me unless my good friends. Sometimes it will be very annoyed if you keep talking about your own thing. It will turn to argue I think. But for me, I like to listen to my friends' business or mood. Because I think I am a person who can make others happier. Some of my friend are often not in a good mood. I always be a listener and giving her or him my opinion. I believe that listening and telling can be a good therapy in their bad mood.
   Sometimes I jealous them that they can talk about their things easily. The most important in relationship: telling, listening and replying. Not everyone can do it perfect. We all know, loving is easy but living is hard. It is still always a problem that how to do it well. On the other hand, I follow my own mind cannot be the best but can be a brace from my own.

gratitude

It's been a long time that i haven't connect the blog stuff. The first time when i use the blog was at my age of 13 years old yet i usually type in Chinese. As many years past, i start figuring that my habit is reading English. I believe that if someone saw my blog they would say : "Such a fake girl! So unnatural. Said that she was falling in love with English?" I was so afraid someone will say like that so i never talk about how English does deep in my heart.
The time when i learned English deeply was not so long, maybe only 9 years. I still glad the teacher who taught me when i was 4 grades of elementary school. Her name is Mrs. Bai. She has retired for years. Her propose was not earning money, that was giving other students her knowledge. She even did not receive the tuition from the poor students.
Her English speaking skill was really good. I hope i can be like her someday. Also, she always contacted with her foreigner friends. Her English writing skill is good. Anyway, she was good at English!